Just Human things.

You see yourself in the world all around you.

Everyone says, “everyone else is fake.”

The line came quit perfectly, almost as if on cue.

It shattered a crack that had long been threatening to break.

I looked for honesty, I wanted truth

But I wasn’t willing to step outside my own shoes

My cubicle, my walls, my computer screen

It protected me from the people, the ones that were here and the ones that had been.

I wanted to find myself in other people’s eyes.

I thought they could see something that I couldn’t find

But I was afraid of risk, the gamble, the dice

I was terrified of what was in my own mind

Did it make me human to feel anger, to feel hate?

Does God allow me to feel those things? or does it change my fate?

Heaven and hell, I've been taught right from wrong

Am I evil for not being better, even after so long?

What’s the point of rules and restrictions?
Is it really about love? Can you say that with conviction?

They chain me, untie me, I’d rather die than suffocate.

They say it’s about Jesus, did he preach of a life-long wait?

In the mean-time there’s the do’s and the don’ts

You shan'ts and you won’ts.

The too fat, the too skinny,

Selfish-arrogant, there’s no winning

It's not God who made us turn on each other,

When we look up is it only for Abba Father?

Religion is our vice and our virtue.

Instead of my success, the day that I met you.

Every day thereafter has been a tale as old as time,

Of a girl that lived life afraid, every action, every thought a crime

But my time has not yet come to be judged before all,

I’ve got moments to go, a love that catches me when I fall.

So I will live as a human, for it is human you have made me

But I will strive to find, to worship and adore thee

Because I chose this life, the Christian life

It’s complicated and it’s difficult but you never said it’d be nice

Oh wait actually you did, and it is when I’m not being lazy

All the things I have to remember, so many things that seem hazy

But I will keep living this life of love

Waiting, just sitting here, looking for the man up above.

-evieroo