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I don’t know if I regret my life in these last days. I know it’s the end because I’m forgetting the beginning. I forget where the bathroom is when I need to urinate at night. I forget my grandchildren, whom I had long considered the equivalent of my life's work. Yesterday, I forgot my eldest son. For a long while I thought he was a stranger sitting in my house in my son’s clothes. I had been waiting for him to arrive, to relieve me of some of my worries. I had been telling everyone around me that my son was coming! I was very excited. I know my son can do it all much better than I can now. He can calculate the numbers and keep the house in order. He can sort through my things and do the work that I cannot do anymore. He can look after his mother much better than I can now. He can remember. He can remember much better than I can now. But I worry. If I forget my first child what else have I forgotten? I don’t want to forget my life before it’s taken from

In the spirit of R U OK Day , September 10th I thought it'd be appropriate to write about the following statement from Grey's Anatomy Episode "Beat Your Heart Out" concerning the effect of deep touch pressure on anxiety . [We'll conclude with a series of  favourite hugs].   In the nature of self-directed learning I wrote out the quote and googled it. 'Cos how else do you study medicine? #amiright "Cows are squeezed tightly in a chute before they're slaughtered. The chute applies intense pressure, resulting in decreased pulse rate, and muscle tone. It calms them down. "   Dr Virginia Dixon states as she commands Bailey and Cristina to hug her while she is having an anxiety attack. " The same principles apply to people like me. A hugging machine is used to relax the sympathetic nervous system, it slows the heart."  Before we begin, it's important to note that Dr Virginia Dixon had Asperger's Syndrome , an autism spec